Ok, so I’m possibly about to divulge some information that I should keep to myself, but in the essence of honesty and keeping it real…here goes!
So, I have this habit. It’s a bad habit and I have no idea where I got it from or when it started. But I have it, and I do it, and I’m not proud of it. What is it? I pick my spots!
Sometimes they don’t even have to be spots. Blackheads will do! And I know that whilst I’m doing it, I shouldn’t be doing it! I stand at the mirror chastising myself whilst in the very act! But sometimes it’s just so satisfying, and sometimes it helps me de-stress. Is that so bad?!
As a large, sore, red lump appeared right on the end of my nose a few days ago I promised myself that I would keep my naughty little fingers away from it. Which I did…for a few hours! Somehow that evening I found myself in front of the mirror, far too tired to be carrying out such a technical procedure, but giving it a go anyway. What’s wrong with me?! Will I never learn?!
I’ll tell you what’s wrong with me…I struggle to leave things alone and let them take their natural course. I try to speed things up to make it better but often, in fact nearly always, I just make them worse.
The big red lump that had appeared on my nose was nowhere near ready to be touched in anyway. And all I did was make it redder, sorer, bigger and less likely to be coverable with concealer! Stupid me!
As I dragged myself off to bed, annoyed that I hadn’t listened to the first voice in my head telling me to leave it alone, I thought about the other things I struggle to leave alone. The other ways in which I try to ‘help’ things along. Or the things I loose patience about, waiting for them to take their assigned course.
And I thought about the things I might have stopped God from doing in and through me because I was in a rush to get it over and done with. And I thought about the damage and pain I had caused in the process by trying to do it my way.
Sometimes life is not pretty. And sometimes things in life hurt. But trying to speed up the process or deal with it our own way is not the answer and can bring about more damage and pain. God knows where we’re at and what life is like and He can bring healing and soothe our pains. We just have to take our hands away and ask Him to do His thing.
(Dear God, please take away my spots. Amen)