It's 2pm and I'm hungry. I'd like nothing more than to sit and eat my reheated-three-times-turned-into-a-mush lunch. But a little bundle has other ideas.
What I've come to realise over these last 4 and a half weeks is that my life is now not my own. And at times its not easy.
But thanks to God's continuing revelations (usually at 2am feeding times!), I have a new perspective on the following...
Then Jesus said to his disciples, "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it. What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul? For the Son of Man is going to come in his Father's glory with his angels, and then he will reward each person according to what he has done. I tell you the truth, some who are standing here will not taste death before they see the Son of Man coming in his kingdom."
I've come to realise that loosing my life is not what I thought it would be - it's not having no life. Loosing my life is a sacrifice, its difficult but it's amazing at the same time.
I've come to realise that gaining life (or gaining a new life) means giving of my life, my time, my resources to meet someone else's needs.
Babies make it obvious when they are in need. And it's usually relatively easy to work out what's bothering them and sort it out (I say usually!!!)
But as adults we've become cultured into thinking that we need to be self sufficient. That people with needs are weak. So we cover up our brokenness or our need for help. We're also not as open to people to find out if they have needs or not.
So in order to find your life...what can you give of your life?
And if you are someone that has a need...be open about it...allow someone to give of their life so that you can both find life in the process.
It's hard work but so worth the rewards!